Today is going to be different, i just don't know how yet.
Every now and then i wake up and i say to myself, "today is going to be different". i never know what gets me to think that, or how long the feeling will last, but it feels good knowing that you have the power to make things happen if you want them to.
well, today is one of those days. i'd like to say that i have a plan for it too, but the reality is i'll probably slip back into normalcy in about 3 hours...so while i head dance to the beats of m.i.a.'s paper planes set on rotation, wearing my favorite jeans and my Sean Jean hat perfectly askewed backward, i'm consciously trying to live "in the moment".
It's definitely a hard thing to accomplish though; a problem i've had since the day i broke free from the college bubble. back in the day i'd make a pact to meet someone new, or even crash a party out of my element and pretending to belong while dancing solo. Unfortunately, it's not a plausible feat here in the real world. And, ofcourse, it has nothing to do with personal finance - thus looking out of place even more so than this post already does ;)
what i CAN do though, and what i believe this post is turning into (i often times just start writing to see where my brain goes...and i usuallly find i write more truthfully and free), is to take a step back and remember what we DO have going for ourselves at this given moment in time. And i'll get back on track by focusing on more financial-based things, with the only exception of listing the true priority first - and it's not money.
Here are the things i am truly thankful for:
In fact, i think i'll play the lottery. Maybe that's the reason this influx of emotions is hitting me so hard this morning? It's telling me to get out there and throw a dollar into the pool with millions, for a chance to WIN millions! Then i can own my very own Panera Bread as planned, go on whatever adventures i need to change my life up a bit, and then blog away into retirement. Yeah, i'm gonna go play the lottery :)
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UPDATE: I won!!! Well, part of the lottery anyways...
well, today is one of those days. i'd like to say that i have a plan for it too, but the reality is i'll probably slip back into normalcy in about 3 hours...so while i head dance to the beats of m.i.a.'s paper planes set on rotation, wearing my favorite jeans and my Sean Jean hat perfectly askewed backward, i'm consciously trying to live "in the moment".
It's definitely a hard thing to accomplish though; a problem i've had since the day i broke free from the college bubble. back in the day i'd make a pact to meet someone new, or even crash a party out of my element and pretending to belong while dancing solo. Unfortunately, it's not a plausible feat here in the real world. And, ofcourse, it has nothing to do with personal finance - thus looking out of place even more so than this post already does ;)
what i CAN do though, and what i believe this post is turning into (i often times just start writing to see where my brain goes...and i usuallly find i write more truthfully and free), is to take a step back and remember what we DO have going for ourselves at this given moment in time. And i'll get back on track by focusing on more financial-based things, with the only exception of listing the true priority first - and it's not money.
Here are the things i am truly thankful for:
- A family and a gaggle of friends. I have a woderfully supporting and loving wife, a fat cat, a troublemaking kitty, a good group of college friends, and you suckers ;) And God willing, a few little miniature humans in the near future.
- A house. Sure 99.9% of it is owned by the bank, and i'd rather live closer to my friends, but the fact of the matter is that i do in fact "own" a house, and we're not in the subprime mess which is looking good in this economy.
- A good paying job with plenty (maybe too many) benefits that would surely shock a few people. If they weren't soo specific i'd list them all out, but my fear of getting caught typing away at work is currently holding me back...although i have a feeling it will all spew out here in the very near future ;)
- Having my financial wits about me. And the idea of being a millionaire by the ripe age of 43. I'm not totally budget conscious yet, but i'm working on it.
In fact, i think i'll play the lottery. Maybe that's the reason this influx of emotions is hitting me so hard this morning? It's telling me to get out there and throw a dollar into the pool with millions, for a chance to WIN millions! Then i can own my very own Panera Bread as planned, go on whatever adventures i need to change my life up a bit, and then blog away into retirement. Yeah, i'm gonna go play the lottery :)
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UPDATE: I won!!! Well, part of the lottery anyways...
Labels: life, randomness 3000
posted by J. Money at
11:34 AM
9 Comments:
I have these days too. Enjoy it. I've noticed the subtle things lately that happen when fall comes things just seem different.....and my mood changes accordingly. (i.e. get ready for some good change)
I read your blog in an attempt to become more fiscally responsible myself....it hasn't worked yet but you give me some good ideas.
My mother and I had this conversation recently. I am trying to live in the moment as well. I use to be horrible at it, but now it's getting quite easy and feels good when I do.
I did something similiar to you in college. I made a new years resolution to do something courageous everyday. Something out of the ordinary. Something you normally wouldn't do. For me it was asking a question in class or starting up a conversation with a hot guy or something ;) I do that in grad school also. I highly recommend doing something courageous everyday.
I have so many days like this type. Many times it is on Sundays after a alcohol filled weekend that shrivels up my insides and sets me into a temporary depression. Not because of the alcohol but because of the money I spent on the alcohol. Waking up thinking that the new day is going to be different is a great approach to start your day. Playing the lottery often is an even better approach! Every Tuesday and Saturday, one of these days I am going to hit it!
I wish today were like that for me...I do love your lottery winnings dream though. Wouldn't mind owning a Panera myself (of course, knowing me I'd end up eating through the profits ;-))
ms. hart - FALL! my favorite season of them all by far. i love fall. and i'm glad you're getting some good ideas here, sometimes i wonder how i came up with what i did ;) you'll work on your financials when time is right and you're up to it - you're already on the right side of things reading about stuff!
budget mama - good for you! keep it up, i truly believe if you can master that you'll be happier in general...i know i was today :)
miss marilyn - i like where you're going with that! that's not a bad idea at all, in fact i'll try it tomorrow. i've started writing down things i've accomplished over the past few weeks (once a day in a journal), and i find it helpful to recall such things...even if it's something small or someone else would laugh at.
doctor s - you crack me up dude, seriously you're one funny mother f'er :) when we win the lottery (or perhaps when we drink ourselves into oblivion), we should grab a few drinks on the beach somewhere and just chill. and blog. and drink.
always in style - i will dedicate today's lottery ticket to both our dreams of owning a panera! i swear to you, if i win, i will split it 50/50 with you...kinda like that one movie with nicholas cage and that waitress - It Can Happen to You i think it's called. so cross your fingers ;)
hooray for living in the moment. it's the only place to be.
though i wouldn't waste the money on the lottery. buy a popsicle instead - you'll be happier. :)
You know, usually i'd listen to ya paradigm, but luckily i didn't cuz i just ran the numbers and saw that i won $10 buckaroos last night! haha.. Opah! I'll post about it soon, but i matched 2 #'s AND the powerball #.
And i hope you're reading this alwaysinstyle as you're owed $5 of it :) holler via email and i'll shoot it on over to ya (j (at) budgetsaresexy(dot)com)
I like that you focused on what you're thankful for in your current financial situation. I for one would love to win the lotto, but never play. I guess I'm the slow and steady kind of investor. I always had that dream when I worked in an office that our team would win a lotto pool and could all quit our jobs together.
I found your post through the Carnival of Personal finance and have also included your post in my blog.
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